Sunday, October 28, 2012

Shhhhh....I'm Trying to Help




Mark 10:46-52
October 28, 2012


I was living in Chicago in 1993 when the city hosted the Parliament of World Religions.  Attendees and speakers included Thich Nhat Hanh, the Dali Lama, Jimmy Carter, Sister Joan Chitister, Rabbi Michael Learner.  These are heavy hitters in the world of religion.   

Most exciting was when the Dali Lama came out and spoke to 20,000 in Grant Park on the last day of the conference.  I was one of the teeming masses.  His arrival was that of a rock star.  People were craning their necks to get a glimpse, folks up close were trying, to no avail, to reach out and shake his hand.  All of us knew we were in the presence of greatness.

Now, I’m sure many of you have been to Chicago.  You know it is impossible to walk around the city without passing by a number of people who were are begging in the street.  Panhandlers, as we call them, are a fixture in Chicago – as well as many, many other cities.

As I read this story of Bartimaeus, I began to think about the crowds gathered that day in Grant Park to hear the Dali Lama, and realized that while we were gathered excitedly to see this spiritual giant, the streets around us were filled with people like Bartimaeus.  People who made their living by begging.  People we were blind to. 

That day, one of the most famous spiritual leaders in the world came to their city – a leader who preached and practiced care of the poor – but if a street person begging for money had screamed at the top of their lungs, trying to get the attention of the Dali Lama that day, no way would they have been granted a face to face conversation with him.  Their voices would not have risen above the crowds.  And even if they did, they would have been ignored.  The crowds, myself included, were there to hear the Dali Lama.  Panhandlers – a fixture of the city – were not a part of the thinking that day.

Bartimaeus was like a panhandler – only probably a little worse off than most.  That’s because being blind in Jesus’ day was more than just not having sight in a sighted world, and more than a sure fire road to poverty.  The scriptures portray blindness as an unmitigated evil.  Blindness was a punishment for either your own sins or the sins of your ancestors.  It meant you lived like Bartimaeus – on the outside of the city gates, out of sight of those on the inside, your only source of livelihood being the charity and pity of others, and you were subjected to the constant judgments and assumptions of others. 

One day, a crowd comes by.  This crowd was following the famous Jewish Rabbi who preached and practiced care of the poor, the blind, and the sinner. I know the miracle of the story is that Bartimaeus receives his sight in the end, but after that experience in Chicago, I feel like the real miracle is that Jesus not only takes notice of Bartimaeus, but he treats him better than anyone present that day.  At least equal to the miracle of giving him sight was the miracle of giving him a voice: a voice long silenced by society.   

Jesus gives him voice in two ways.

First, he actually hears him.  When Jesus leaves Jericho, he is surrounded by crowds.  These are not silent crowds, following somberly. These are the crowds that, right after this, will follow him into Jerusalem shouting and singing Hosanna! Hosanna!  There is growing excitement, a mounting tension, and hope.  There is also chaos – people don’t know exactly who this is.  Some are saying Messiah, some still call him Jesus of Nazareth, some are thinking Son of David.  I’m sure there are heated discussions.

I suspect, Bartimaeus believed as much as anyone, that he was a sinner, blind because he was being punished by God.  The English translation says that he calls out, “Have mercy on me.”  A more direct translation is “Mercy me.” Or probably better: “Pity me.”  Mercy is a word used when someone is in a wretched condition and seeks help from another who is not at all obligated to help.  It’s the cry of the undeserving.

He called out – and the crowd said, “Shhhhhh….,” they said, “there’s something far more important than you going on here.”

Jesus refuses to let the crowd silence Bartimaeus.  Jesus hears Bartimaeus’ cry and he stops dead in his tracks.  The whole narrative, the whole drama comes to a halt.  It’s interrupted by this man that society has thrown away.

But to Jesus, Bartimaeus’ voice mattered.  How many times do you think Bartimaeus lived the experience of that common nightmare:  the one where you desperately need to get someone’s attention, and you try to scream at the top of your lungs only to have it come out as barely a whisper.  This is probably how Bart felt his whole life.  “Shhhhhhhhh….” Jesus tells the crowd.  “Let this man speak.”

But it’s what Jesus does next that I think is even more amazing.  When Bartimaeus comes to him, Jesus doesn’t give him pity.  The first thing Jesus does is ask him a seemingly simple question:  “What do you want me to do for you?”

Now the temptation is to think Jesus knew what Bartimaeus wanted – because of course, he’s Jesus; he knows everything, right?  But, what if Jesus, a human being, thought to himself, “I haven’t lived this man’s life, I don’t know what it’s like to be blind, I don’t know what it’s like to beg for your very existence.  How the heck do I know what he wants or needs?”  In other words, what if part of what it means to serve someone is to actually ask them what they need?  I know that seems entirely unrevolutionary.  But think about it.  When we look at people we think are less fortunate than ourselves, we tend to assume we know what they want and need without ever asking.   

This act of giving Bartimaeus his voice – allowing him to be heard, and to speak for himself – had a dramatic effect on Bartimaeus.  He went from seeing Jesus as an imperial figure to whom he was entirely inferior – he believed he was literally at the mercy of the Son of David, the next king – to calling him “teacher.”  It’s a demotion.  With his question, Jesus leveled the field a bit.  And this allowed Bartimaeus to feel justified to ask for what he truly wanted.  Notice - he changed his request.  At first he asked for what everyone assumed he should ask for:  mercy, pity, forgiveness.  It was his fault he was where he was.  All he could hope for was that someone would take pity on him.  But when Jesus asks him what he wants, Bartimaeus asks to have his sight restored. 

Jesus allowed Bartimaeus to speak and be heard.  He allowed him to define his own reality and ask for what he really wanted.  The crowd tried to tell him to be quiet when he called out to Jesus.  They certainly told him to shut up when it came to asking for anything more than pity.  Jesus silences the crowd, not the blind man.  He listens carefully, and the result is that Bartimaeus is made well – made whole.  He becomes a full person: in his own eyes and in the eyes of others. 

In general, I’m lucky in that most people I know do a pretty good job at hearing the cry for help.  We know people are suffering in a variety of ways, and we know that the faithful thing to do is to respond:  we genuinely want to help.  But often we only hear the cry for pity.  This is true when we think of people who live in poverty.  Sometimes consciously, sometimes unconsciously, we ascribe blame to people who are poor – thinking it is the result of their own failures and lack of moral character.  When people cry for help, things are set up so we retain our place of privilege.  Those who are asked get to decide “yes” or “no” based on when we think someone deserves help.  We make a judgment. 

And too often we try to help but forget the stop of stopping and listening.  We don’t ask what someone really needs, and even if they try to tell us, we still think we know better.  We effectively say, “Shhhhh…I’m trying to help you.” 

I read a blog written by someone receiving government assistance.  She wrote this:  In middle and upper middle class, we [who are broke are] always either noble, selfless, salt of the earth worker warriors with nary a sensitive need to be found, or lumpen loud rude and of the welfare class. We don't get to speak for ourselves- especially about how brutalizing classist stereotypes like these about our lives are, and how those stereotypes impact the health of our minds, bodies and spirits.

Our assumption is that the goal for people is to be self sufficient members of the middle class culture.  Put more crudely, we have a picture of what the “norm” is, we assume it is good, and we think people who live in poverty want to, and should, conform.   Our training programs are designed to teach people how to “act” culturally appropriate in interviews, how to do the right thing, say the right thing, play by the dominant rules.  We require people to make decisions that prove they have “character,” in order to get our mercy.  We see them as deficient instead of seeing our own failures, like sometimes choosing a lifestyle that might be a contributing factor to their struggle to live without fear of losing food, housing and children.

We assume poor people want to be well educated, middle class citizens with professional jobs.  Do they?  Some do.  But maybe if we asked, others want to work the jobs they already do, but make the same living wage that I make.  Maybe they want their skills and work to be as valued as much as mine. Maybe they seed my lifestyle and find it full of problems that they don’t want.  Maybe someone might see my way of living as inherently immoral in some ways.

Do people who are outcasts in society, living in poverty, necessarily know what’s best for them?  I’m not naïve.  I know the answer to that is “not always.”  But I know the rest of the answer to that is “no more or less than I know what’s best for myself.”  And certainly no less than I know what’s best for them. 

Asking the question, what do you want – and of course respecting the answer – has an impact, no matter what.  Our assumptions are challenged, our prejudices are exposed, we see people as complex human beings with a desire to be whole, struggling to figure out what that means, and fighting the resistance they meet in their efforts to attain this wholeness. 

One limitation of this passage is that it could leave us with the impression that it’s as easy as asking one question and waiting for the answer.  This is where we move from the land of literary truth to real life.  For us to truly listen to one another, we have to have a relationship – and not just any relationship: relationships of trust and mutual care.  These are not easy to build.  Especially when we’re talking about building such relationships between people who have – at least at first glance – a fair number of differences and live with different worldviews and experiences.  It takes time.  It takes humility.  It requires patience, apologies, forgiveness, and almost always it requires some risk. 

Just like Bartimaeus needed sight in a practical sense to survive in his world, people need food, shelter, transportation and healthcare just to have a life that is not constantly on the edge of safety and security.  But Bartimaeus gaining sight was not just about being able to see again – it was about a desire to be seen by others in a whole new way.  He wanted respect, to be seen without being judged. 

I think the same is true for a lot of people who effectively have to beg for help.  They are tired of being looked down on, judged for their lifestyle and decisions.  They are weary of having to constantly prove they are worthy of the things they ask for.  They may ask for pity – thinking that’s the only way to get attention from those who hold the resources they need. 

How can we stop – and ask, “What can I do for you?”  And maybe instead of someone just asking for what they need to get through that day, they will say they want to be valued for who they are – not judged – not forced to sit on the margins and beg people for mercy.

Maybe as much as wanting their “ailment” to be cured, they want my blindness to be removed: the blindness that keeps me from truly seeing someone.  And maybe if my blindness is cured, I would be able to follow Jesus like Bartimaeus, the faithful one, did.  Amen.