Sunday, June 16, 2013

Forgiven, Freed, and Made Whole



Luke 7:36-8:3
June 16, 2013
 
I went on a retreat in early May as part of my continuing education.  At the retreat were seven pastors and a leader.  One day we were getting ready to start one of our sessions and one person wasn’t there yet.  She came in about 5 minutes late, and when she came in she was very apologetic.  “I’m so sorry.  I really apologize.”  We all did what you all would do…we chuckled and said, “you’re forgiven.”  We chuckled because of course she was forgiven…It went without saying. 

But then, she went on to explain herself, and say that she knows starting on time is important.  The leader interrupted and said, “the correct response is, ‘thank you.’”  We all laughed, because we have all been there.  We do something that annoys or affects others, and we feel bad so we apologize.  If they say, “no problem,” or “you’re forgiven,” we go on to explain…because in truth, we don’t think it’s true.  We don’t believe it when we are told we’re forgiven.  We still feel bad, embarrassed.  We still think others are judging us, even if it’s about trivial things. 

While I was watching this unfold, I thought about our prayer of confession.  I’m not saying our prayer of confession is equivalent to admitting you are late.  It’s not trivial; we have confessed our willingness to go to war, our participation in systems that degrade and kill, our unwillingness to see our neighbors in need.  And when we say “you are forgiven,” it is not usually in the tone we used that day at the retreat.  But it made me wonder, do we really believe it?  When we say together, “In Christ we are forgiven, freed and made whole,” do we believe it?  Do we even know what it means?

At first reading of our passage it’s easy to think the woman comes in weeping because she is contrite.  She is embarrassed for all her sins and desires to be forgiven by Jesus.  But when we read to the end, I don’t think that’s the case.  I don’t think these are tears of contrition, I think they are tears of gratitude and joy.  I think these are the actions of someone who knows what it means to be forgiven, freed, and made whole. 

It’s always a little awkward to preach a sermon that turns on a verb tense, but here goes:  When Jesus explains to Simon the Pharisee what is going on with the woman, he says “her sins have been forgiven.” Notice he doesn’t say “her sins are forgiven,” present tense, or even “your sins will be forgiven,” future tense.  The verb here in Greek is in the perfect, indicative tense:  which means something that has happened in the past and continues to be true. 

There is no indication that this woman confessed her sins.  There is no indication that she changed her ways.  There is no indication that something was required for her sins to be forgiven.  They simply have been forgiven…in the past and ongoing.  I don’t think this verb tense is insignificant – in fact I think it carried all the significance in the world. 

It was already true, it had been true all along.  And I think she believed it.  I think something in how Jesus interacted with her made her realize what it meant to be forgiven and made whole – “saved,” as the text says.  She believed it and no longer felt the need to see herself as a sinner, to apologize for who she was and what she had done, to feel bad and guilty.   And she certainly said “thank you” with everything she had!  Because that’s the spontaneous response when you believe such good news…gratitude. 

In our prayer of confession, the way we do it in worship, we can too easily convince ourselves that we come unforgiven and then, only after we confess can we be forgiven.  I worry that this might make us question our forgiveness – in the same way my friend did at the retreat.  She came knowing we already knew she was late…the sin had been committed, and now she needed forgiveness from us.  If we decided to be annoyed or upset, she wouldn’t feel forgiven.  And while her offense was trivial, the chance that someone might be annoyed was fair to middling.  So, unless she was sure no one was upset, she wasn’t going to feel forgiven.  Hence the gravelling, self deprecation…these are things we know to do to secure people’s forgiveness.  And we assume we need to do these things to secure God’s.

We come to worship knowing we have sinned.  We come knowing what we say in the prayer of confession is true.  At times we have done, or at least been complicit in, the things we admit.  And so, we come in need of forgiveness, right?  And there’s a sense in which we need to gravel, self deprecate, indicate remorse, feel shame in order to earn forgiveness.  After all, we only do the assurance of pardon after the confession.  Because we have set up our worship the way we have, we can miss what it really means to be forgiven, freed and made whole.  If we knew, I think our Gloria would be louder. 

To be forgiven, freed, and made whole means we have been forgiven…before the confession.  We make the confession as forgiven people.  Not because we have done nothing wrong, and being forgiven does not mean we just go on doing what we’ve always done; but because it’s not the confession that secures the forgiveness. 

We are included in God’s realm – in the community of those feasting at God’s banquet – as we are.  It makes no sense to us, but when we realize we are a part of God’s world, we can be sinners and forgiven at the same time.  “Nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ” we’re told in Paul’s letter to the Romans.  There was nothing that separated the woman from Jesus – not her status as a sinner in other people’s eyes, not her status as a female, as an outsider.  It was clear that being forgiven meant complete union with Jesus…intimate, beautiful, powerful union.

In Jesus’ day, sin primarily had to do with being included in the community or not.  When you did something wrong, you were excluded from community.  Inclusion was determined by a list of rules you had to follow.  Sinners were not invited to the banquet table.  Sinners were not able to participate in the Jewish community as equals.  They were shunned. 

Sin and forgiveness are not just between individuals and God – remember, this whole scene unfolds in front of Simon and the other Pharisees.  Jesus tells the parable for their sake, he explains her forgiveness for their sake.  He is telling them she’s in; she’s always been in, because being in God’s community is not dependent on a list of moral regulations.  In the parable, Jesus shows Simon and the others that if people who were sinners were not allowed at the table…no one would be there. 

When confession seems like a prerequisite to forgiveness, we perpetuate the idea Simon has…until you confess your wrongs and fix them you are not welcome in the community.  Confession, the way we do it, also has the unintended effect of reminding us that we will always fall short of the ideal, and so we can never actually be forgiven – believe we are forgiven, because the second we are declared forgiven, we tell ourselves we’re in need again. 

That’s why this week we assured ourselves of being freed and made whole at beginning and end of confession.  We are forgiven going in, nothing changes, and we’re reminded that we have been forgiven the whole time…because it is in Christ, not confession, we are forgiven, freed, and made whole; and we are in Christ; in the community of God, from the day we are baptized by the waters of the womb.  And probably the best response to this as we worship every Sunday is, “thank you…I accept.”  A loud and powerful “Gloria!”

So if our prayer of confession runs the risk of undermining our understanding of forgiveness, why do we do it?  Many churches don’t for this very reason.  Aren’t we just perpetuating this notion that graveling, self flagellation, humiliation are a necessary part of the Christian faith?  Maybe – maybe we need to change how we think about it and do it.  But I think there is value to confession.  It is what was needed from Simon and the Pharisees in response to the assurance of forgiveness.  Confession.

The woman’s forgiveness in Christ was not all she needed.  She needed the religious community to reflect God’s forgiveness as well.  Confession is about naming that the world, our communities, do not reflect the forgiveness/wholeness/inclusion we find in God.

At the end, Jesus turns and addresses the woman directly.  He tells her her sins are forgiven.  Because of this, we might be tempted to think she needs this assurance of forgiveness.  But, his words are unnecessary as far as she as an individual is concerned.  She has already been forgiven.  Jesus just made that clear.  Others, however, are having difficulty comprehending her new state and Simon might continue to regard her as ‘a woman known in the city as a sinner;’ exclude her from the community.  She does not need forgiveness from God, but she does need recognition of her new life and forgiveness among God’s people. 

But as much as we might need confession, it needs to be surrounded by the assurance that like the women, like Simon, like everyone, we have been forgiven.  In the past and ongoing…we have been forgiven. 

Friends believe the good news…in Christ we are forgiven freed and made whole.  Amen.